When It Comes To It?

Lately the topic of religion has constantly been bothering me. I really don't have a preference of which I believe in because majority of the ideals I integrate in my life are based off from different religion; though some are the same. So this brings me to the conclusion of when it comes to it I don't know which I should choose.

I hate when the best things in life have a catch. FTW rawr.

Again and Again

Lately, I have been having these weird dreams that seem to have the same meaning over and over again. It sometimes makes me wonder," is that who i am" or are they just warnings for what is to come. People might think I am crazy, but you can never be too careful. I remember majority of times when I dream certain things happen from them in real life. Its crazy yet intriguing. No, I don't think I am a psychic or anything; just a normal person whom seems to be thinking about these things a lot.

Well school has started for me again. What a busy schedule I have this semester. I take on my greatest enemy of all times, English. So much reading .... so far behind, and its only the third week how depressing is that. Wish I could have more time, but sadly my mind is not on all that right now. I know, I am crazy...I should be focused and should be studying like no other to conquer my enemies, but nope.

I am 20. I feel old.

You know those times when you look back about yourself you either feel remorseful about your past yourself or proud. Well, looking back I have done some pretty stupid things. Things that I cannot believe that I would do, but I did. How sad. Though the worst part is is that some people still believe I am that same person;player,nerd,anti-social, etc. Times when I bump into old comrades I always look at the eyes first to determine what they are thinking. Usually its the, "shit its him" look and often play it off with "oh hey .. long time no see" You know I am an analytic...or so I say, but these things are obvious. Unless I am just over thinking everything, but who knows.

My life is what it is. Sometimes I wished I could just. But it cant be helped maybe I just think a lot sometimes not the right things. Hopefully in life I will be able to smile all the time with no story behind it. Just a real smile.